Thursday, January 1, 2015

the new year and a longgggg overdue goodbye note....

Every year on this day i always resolve to forget the forgone year and start anew. This year im thinking of something different - instead of forgetting 2014, im just going to resolve to build on it! Im gonna carry forward

the lessons and better myself, 
the hurt and strengthen myself,
the anger and reflect on myself,
the happiness and cheer myself 
and most of all....
all the love i received and be thankful :')
I received much and gave very little in return. 
I talked more than i listened
I ranted more than resolved
I judged more than I understood
I got irritated more than i brought clarity
I assumed more than i confirmed
I taught more than i learnt
I expected more than what i fulfilled

Well, I can’t promise that I can make all these faults of mine go away completely but all I can say is that I will try and that I won’t stop until the person I see in the mirror is someone I can genuinely and sincerely be proud of… 

on that note,

In 2014 I made a decision which effectively wiped out a hugeeeee part of my social circle (yes yes we say that we’ll keep in touch but its just not the same la  ). But I felt then and still feel now that turning the page on that chapter of my life is one of my better decisions of 2014… I still am drowning in sadness, tearing up every now and then and missing them like OMG so so much but I sincerely dun regret that decision… it brought on changes and a lot more smiles on a lot more faces and im honestly seeing things that I positive changes, which I could not bring about by being there, happen. To that bunch of ppl, all I have to say is…

Thank you for having my back all those years. you may not have liked what I did but still you didn’t abandon me. Instead u supported me, tried many times to understand and open my eyes to new possibilities and many many more times you just set asides your feeling and went all with the plan just to appease this irritable short tempered short person. Thank you thank you thank you thank you! Im sorry too that I couldn’t be the senior, the officer, the big brother, the friend, the confidant, the pillar of strength, the lighthouse of clarity and the source of love, care, concern, support and knowledge that you guys needed and deserved. Thou I feel that the ‘out-of-sight = out-of-mind’ already setting in, trust u guys will always always be in my heart and a big part of my life… 
U are my memories, U are my treasures, U are my smiles
Be strong, be clear on your goals and be concise in your work and most of all, communicate. Value each others as friends, not just respect them as colleagues… 

happy new year my dears! lets make 2015 an awesome chapter in our wonderful life...

Monday, August 30, 2010

RIP kiddo...

heard that sme1 i knew passed away tis morn. didn't noe him tat well bt still haiz... anw as WT posted,

Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived.
- Captain Jean Luc Picard (Star Trek: Generations)

we muz nvr 4gt to cherish those arnd us lest lose them 4ever....

thx 4 all the memories u've given us. u'll 4ever b in our hearts...
rest in eternal peace my dear boy

Thursday, August 19, 2010

personality test...

juz took one of those tests on fb, & was quite disturbed by the result...
"The Vain, Self Centered Leader
Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you."

i wonder if it true =( ...

Monday, August 16, 2010

Random Muzings....

They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of a mountain. They’re smiling, ecstatic, triumph...ant. They don’t take pictures along the way cos who wants to remember the rest of it. We push ourselves because we have to, not because we like it. The relentless climb, the pain and anguish of taking it to the next level. Nobody takes pictures of that. Nobody wants to remember. We just wanna remember the view from the top. The breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That’s what keeps us climbing. And it’s worth the pain. That’s the crazy part. It’s worth anything.
– Grey’s Anatomy Monologue (via justbesplendid)

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

how i ended my september...


i noe i said i b blogging like every wk but it seems impossible leh - n its not the lack of time tat is the problem but rather its cos i dun noe wad to blog abt. those hu noe me will noe tat im actually a guy of few words. so, i tink i will change the wkly part into a monthly post instead. then i shall force myself to articulate the numerous tots in my head juz soo tat i can bore ur'll by writing it here =p

SGP Formula One First Aid Duty
went for the duty again tis yr. it was certainly less stressful tis time since my involvement was quite little. nvrtheless, like b4, it was not always smooth sailing - bt then, wad is? so after thinking about it for a few daes decided to juz sweep the bad parts of the xperience under the carpet n move on while focusing on the gd parts. soooooo, here r the gd parts!

1) meeting new ppl:
one thing i really like abt tis type of large scale duty is tat i get to meet n work wif more SJ peeps other than the usual duty siaos n my zone ppl. it does create a sense of bonding and family spirit wif ppl of all ranks/zones/appointment working 2gether to contribute to teh bigger success of the org.

2) having gr8 company!
i muz realli thx Ms P for being such a gr8 company tolerating my nonsense n my more than occasional bad mood [srry i spoilt ur study plans =( n made u run arnd... ] had wonderful chit chat sessions tat really increased my respect n admiration for some of them. another nice part was tat there were a few moments where the care & concern we hav for one another - b they frm SJ or our non-SJ frends hu came to help out - was really evident like hw sum of them volunteered to stay bhind to help out or like when Kam gt lunch for me ( i suppose smehw she knew i wld b hungry...)

haha on the whole, i definitely enjoyed tis yr duty!

ES and YR's ROM
a BIGGG congratualtions to them! haha it was happy affair tat turned out 2 b quite a reunion for me. managed to catch up wif a few peeps whom i've nt seen for a long long time n realli had fun doin so. oso managed to find the 1st baby tat did not cry when he/she 1st saw me! was sooo cute lah. anw had to leave early cos i was really quite tired havin not slept much the night b4 =( anw, i try to post sum pics of the event sum other tym...

NPCC .38 Shooting Competition
participating in tis for the 2nd yr running, sadly my shooting is
getting worst, haiz!!!! anways, nothing much to say abt it except
tat the competition's going to be held tis wkend so wish us all the luck!

all in all, sept was a veri bz mth cos it was full of mani evts but i foresee myself being buried in books mugging away for the nxt 1 -2 mths preparing for the all important exams coming up soon... anyhows to all who are having/goin to hav their exams

remember, 1) nvr lose hope
2) always try ur best
in all that u do

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

busy busy month...

wow sept juz flew pass me n im still drowning in work, assignments etc... its been quite a hectic month esp in terms of SJ activities... can't really write much cos gt a lecture to attend in a while so juz details to keep u bz till i come back wif a proper post:

OTC Commissioning Parade 2009
- good! it'll really be great if the idea of having a parade for the commissioning is continued cos it require more effort from the participants hence will make it all the more meaningful to them...

SJ Walkathon 2009
- hmmm... quite hectic but in the end everything went smoothly so i guess its quite ok yah. gd turnout from TIC n a biggggg thank you 2 all the officers hu came to help ou =)

BFA/AFA examinations
- i lost my FA manual AGAIN!!! dan irritating cos i end up buying a new one like every yr cos i keep misplacing it lol! anw, i hope the kids really took to heart the pointers we gav them n tat they will pass on the knowledge...

- Chinatown lantern festival light-up
- SGP F1 night races!!!!

erm tats all for nw, i hear the cool airconditioned lecture theatre callin my name... =p

Friday, September 4, 2009

1st week of a hectic month...

yup its sept alrdy, darn time flying by fast! tis month is goin 2 b quite tiring cos gt things lined up all month - from test to pds to training etc... hope it'll b fun too...