writings of venod =)

RIP kiddo...

2010-08-30T13:57:00.003+08:00

heard that sme1 i knew passed away tis morn. didn't noe him tat well bt still haiz... anw as WT posted,

Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived.
- Captain Jean Luc Picard (Star Trek: Generations)

we muz nvr 4gt to cherish those arnd us lest lose them 4ever....

thx 4 all the memories u've given us. u'll 4ever b in our hearts...
rest in eternal peace my dear boy

personality test...

2010-08-19T00:38:00.001+08:00

Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you."

i wonder if it true =( ...

Random Muzings....

2010-08-16T17:13:00.002+08:00

They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of a mountain. They’re smiling, ecstatic, triumph...ant. They don’t take pictures along the way cos who wants to remember the rest of it. We push ourselves because we have to, not because we like it. The relentless climb, the pain and anguish of taking it to the next level. Nobody takes pictures of that. Nobody wants to remember. We just wanna remember the view from the top. The breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That’s what keeps us climbing. And it’s worth the pain. That’s the crazy part. It’s worth anything.

– Grey’s Anatomy Monologue (via justbesplendid)

how i ended my september...

2009-10-07T23:43:00.009+08:00

hihi,

i noe i said i b blogging like every wk but it seems impossible leh - n its not the lack of time tat is the problem but rather its cos i dun noe wad to blog abt. those hu noe me will noe tat im actually a guy of few words. so, i tink i will change the wkly part into a monthly post instead. then i shall force myself to articulate the numerous tots in my head juz soo tat i can bore ur'll by writing it here =p

SGP Formula One First Aid Duty
went for the duty again tis yr. it was certainly less stressful tis time since my involvement was quite little. nvrtheless, like b4, it was not always smooth sailing - bt then, wad is? so after thinking about it for a few daes decided to juz sweep the bad parts of the xperience under the carpet n move on while focusing on the gd parts. soooooo, here r the gd parts!

1) meeting new ppl:
one thing i really like abt tis type of large scale duty is tat i get to meet n work wif more SJ peeps other than the usual duty siaos n my zone ppl. it does create a sense of bonding and family spirit wif ppl of all ranks/zones/appointment working 2gether to contribute to teh bigger success of the org.

2) having gr8 company!
i muz realli thx Ms P for being such a gr8 company tolerating my nonsense n my more than occasional bad mood [srry i spoilt ur study plans =( n made u run arnd... ] had wonderful chit chat sessions tat really increased my respect n admiration for some of them. another nice part was tat there were a few moments where the care & concern we hav for one another - b they frm SJ or our non-SJ frends hu came to help out - was really evident like hw sum of them volunteered to stay bhind to help out or like when Kam gt lunch for me ( i suppose smehw she knew i wld b hungry...)

haha on the whole, i definitely enjoyed tis yr duty!

ES and YR's ROM
a BIGGG congratualtions to them! haha it was happy affair tat turned out 2 b quite a reunion for me. managed to catch up wif a few peeps whom i've nt seen for a long long time n realli had fun doin so. oso managed to find the 1st baby tat did not cry when he/she 1st saw me! was sooo cute lah. anw had to leave early cos i was really quite tired havin not slept much the night b4 =( anw, i try to post sum pics of the event sum other tym...

NPCC .38 Shooting Competition
participating in tis for the 2nd yr running, sadly my shooting is
getting worst, haiz!!!! anways, nothing much to say abt it except
tat the competition's going to be held tis wkend so wish us all the luck!

all in all, sept was a veri bz mth cos it was full of mani evts but i foresee myself being buried in books mugging away for the nxt 1 -2 mths preparing for the all important exams coming up soon... anyhows to all who are having/goin to hav their exams

remember, 1) nvr lose hope
2) always try ur best in all that u do
AND THE REWARDS WILL COME UR WAY!
JIAYOUZ!!! & ALL THE BEST!!!

busy busy month...

2009-09-22T16:16:00.003+08:00

wow sept juz flew pass me n im still drowning in work, assignments etc... its been quite a hectic month esp in terms of SJ activities... can't really write much cos gt a lecture to attend in a while so juz details to keep u bz till i come back wif a proper post:

OTC Commissioning Parade 2009
- good! it'll really be great if the idea of having a parade for the commissioning is continued cos it require more effort from the participants hence will make it all the more meaningful to them...

SJ Walkathon 2009
- hmmm... quite hectic but in the end everything went smoothly so i guess its quite ok yah. gd turnout from TIC n a biggggg thank you 2 all the officers hu came to help ou =)

BFA/AFA examinations
- i lost my FA manual AGAIN!!! dan irritating cos i end up buying a new one like every yr cos i keep misplacing it lol! anw, i hope the kids really took to heart the pointers we gav them n tat they will pass on the knowledge...

Duties...
- Chinatown lantern festival light-up
- SGP F1 night races!!!!

erm tats all for nw, i hear the cool airconditioned lecture theatre callin my name... =p

1st week of a hectic month...

2009-09-04T14:17:00.001+08:00

yup its sept alrdy, darn time flying by fast! tis month is goin 2 b quite tiring cos gt things lined up all month - from test to pds to training etc... hope it'll b fun too...

updates, updates!!!

2009-08-24T23:38:00.008+08:00

"phewwwwww! phewwww!" [me trying to blow the dust off my blog], man its been quite sumtime since i last blogged. though nt xactly surprising since im usually a quiet guy (can visualise lotz of my previous trainees shaking their head rite nw), i tink this recent 'blog silence' is more due 2 the collective lost of inspiration to blog. even SO (an avid blogger), has been silent for quite sum time. in any case, im back now n shall attempt to blog at least once weekly. hopefully tis attempt doesn't end like all others i started tis yr -in failure (:<)

my hols r overrrrrr!!!!! noooooooooo!!!! though i always seem sian during the hols (cos my life more-or-less consists of sch and SJ only and the absence of either equals lotz of time wif nothing 2 do), its quite stressful being back @ sch again. in fact, its only like wk 3 bt im already having 2 play the 'catch-up' game in order 2 keep pace wif the lecturers n my coursemates - hu always seem smarter than me! (why is tat so? or is it tat im juz dumb?) + the fact tat lotz of the peeps i noe r having their exams/goin to hav their exams does add to the stress loh
anw, a big welcome 2 the yr 1s!!! =)

recently hav been 're-connecting' (i noe there's a proper wrd 4 tis bt can't seem to rmber it) wif lost frends n aquaintainces thx 2 fb. its like quite nice lah, aft so looong get 2 look them up n see hw they r doin n all. inevitabily i start tinking of hw much i miss them n the gd times we had... sighhhh

on the SJ front,
hav been going duties abit more frequently than in the 1st half having done NDP'09, rockamaina, nus archery, race against cancer to note sum... but nothing much to say abt them bsides tat i gt 2 meet sum rather nice ppl =). no photos though cos i juz im not really the camwoing (spelling?) kind n oso cos i hav absolutely no talent in photography wadsoever so i dcided not to torture my camera nor my blog reader(s) (assuming there r any readers). mani activites hav been cancelled/ postponed, due to the flu situation, which is abit of a bummer but i guess btr safe than srry rite! anw, it looks like it'll probably b quite a bz 4th quarter - hopefully the kids get 2 benefit frm the activities, @ the veri least, i do hope they get to hav sum fun...

aniwaes, 2 the peeps having they exams/prelims/tests etc,

ALL THE BEST n JIAYOUZ!!! rmber tat if u hav faith in urself n put in the effort, u'll achieve ur best!

to u gals...

2009-06-16T12:59:00.007+08:00

to the bunch of gals in the project working i in (hopefully u r reading this),

its true tat i mite nvr understand the pressures tat u're under. bt i'll try my best! much is expected of you bt the real qns is: what do u expect? wad are ur goals? wad do u foresee to be the most ideal, reasonable outcome? wadever u choose, i will b there for ur'll...

if u think there's too much obstcles in the way, we'll work thru them one @ a time. if u tink the differant things in your life is pulling u apart in differant directions, we'll find a way to work thru it... when there's a will, there will b a way. believe that u can!

when ur'll really decide wad u want, and truely believe that u can achieve it - u'll find ur inner strength. wif tat, u'll be able 2 work thru anything wif ur team.

nvr lose the hope, n nvr doubt yourselves! JIAYOUZ!!!

its going to be hard... bt we'll get thru it (part1)

2009-06-16T01:13:00.006+08:00

life is a bunch of choices we make, obligations we cr8 for ourselves. we make these choices based on our needs, wants and our assumption of wad is expected of us. it really an experimental process as we nvr know wad is the rite combination - do we juz focus on our needs and bcome cold hearted and somewhat materialistic? or do we focus on our wants n juz be selfish? or juz meet expectations and 4get our dreams and aspirations? nope, its nvr really a clear cut thing.

i guess to be really happy and satisfied, we need to constantly shift our focus from one to the other, adapting to the situation. be there for others when they nid our support and when the time is rite, to be there for ourselves - making sure that our own well of resources, love and passion is topped up every now and than so that is nvr runs dry.

so the next obvious question is: when to shift our focus? my answer: i don't know! as sad as it is, i must admit that i have yet to learn when to shift my focus. neither books nor advice (and even naggings sumtimes) hav enlighten me on this as of yet... BUT... i hav hope! sumday i WILL master the skill and hopefully, i will b able to help other master it too...

till then, it mite be a struggle, it mite be painfully n it definitely b fustrating... bt we'll get thru it. important thing is tat we nvr 4get tat we hav frends n family 2 turn to when we get really lost, n of course, nvr lose the hope...

hi there!

2009-06-05T09:09:00.001+08:00

MIAed again while trying 2 rescue my com frm viruses. found those things damned pesky lol -i suppose the creators of computer virus r either to free or have financial gains from the sale of anti-virus prog... in any case, hope i dun get infected again - lost enuf data frm the last tym already =( ...

still tryin to find a job - any lobang for nite shift jobs ane1? haha lol

YAY SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!!

2009-05-01T22:28:00.004+08:00

haloooo every1! =)

im done wif my exams liao... dun really xpect good results but shld b enuf to keep me at ntu. its the end of my first yr @ ntu... nt tat proud of myself really - i noe i can much btr if only i work harder. its time for me 2 really haul ass n get moving!

now tat the hols r starting, i been tinking abt my life n decided to do abit of change here n there. i noe that its usually @ the start of yr when we're supposed to list our resolutions n all but btr late than nvr rite?! here r my resoltions for the remaininig of the yr...

1. SLIM DOWN!!!

i kinda forgot hw to grow vertically n hav been growing horizontally 4 sum yrs nw. its time i sort this out yah... so if u see me stuffin my face wif food, wack the back of head!

2. Get my studies in order

yah im nt all tat proud of it currently. tym i start puttin in more effort n making btr use of my opportunity @ ntu

3. reassessing my present & future contribution to ____

was telling SO recently tat leaving ____ was juz as painful as staying. really nid to tink abt my role there and the part it i play in its future and the part it plays in my future. dun wanna be a dead weight there n honestly, i sumtimes feel tat i m. is it time to part company or merely tym to change the office cubicle? hmmm...

4. Become a btr frend

was tinking abt tis recently. m i a gd frend - i noe i wann b but am i? i really hope to start developing my sucky social skills. again i nid ur help wif tis - so nxt tym we meet, tell me honestly if i've been a gd frend or a juz pain in the A_S...

5*BONUS resolution* Sing "London Bridge" btr...

haha tis is really more 4 the poor souls out there who hav to endure my singing - hopefully, i'll bcom btr @ it =)

so there they are - 5 things i wanna do by the end of the yr... so wish me luck n to those of u out there who r oso making changes in their life, ALL THE BEST!!! JIAYOU!!!

FACOM 2009

2009-03-26T01:51:00.003+08:00

tried out a new role in tis year's FACOM, was quite nice though felt a pang of guilt wif me being so 'free' n seeing every1 else arnd me so bz but i guess tat it looks like tat will b the case for more evts to come... anw, just wanted to say to all competitors:

its the journey tat matters and not the destination! the gr8test prize is the things u learn abt urself, abt ur other team mates n the frendship tat u build wif them! i hope tat every1 of u walked away frm FACOM wif tis prize! in any case, im sure tat ur seniors, trainers and oficers r proud of u and tat u will inspire ur juniors wif ur determination n commitment!

Duties

2009-03-26T00:57:00.008+08:00

after a short hiatus spent the last 2 wkends@ duties...

NTU Bike rally 2009 (15 Mar)
my second time doin duty 4 tis evt (covered during last yr's bike rally oso wif YongSiang n his peeps) tis yr slightly different cos was in the safety car wif the organisers (onli sjab guy there) - so felt abit out of place but the organiser peeps were nice so tat bad lah... smae ting lke last yr - it rain darn heavily! pity the cyclist! the duty did teach me sum things - hopefully i can successfully learn wad i need to n put it into practise... o ya, i got 2 do the duty wif a JC frend - aloy! it was gd working wif him again aft so long =)

coincidentally continued by attending another uni's duty over the last wkend

NUS Boulderactive 2009 (20 - 22 March)
one of the longer duties (almost whole day kind) though i only was there for like the 1st and 2nd day... nothing much to say except tat when (alot of time) + (very bored) + (alot of shops) = (alot of $$$) lol! liked the command post @ the ice cream place though - nice ice cream, good view n comfortable enviroment! now for a few thank yous:

GL for intro me to Wii! haha
Aseah for the hand tatto
Kamsiah for making me confused between tuna & cheese =p
SO for the gd views =p
Timo for being TIMO!!! haha

photos of the ppl @ the duty

fyi, i'll be taking another break soon for my exams so i guess i'll b 'disappearing' again...

mothly blog resuscitation!

2009-03-09T00:29:00.002+08:00

haalooooooo =)

my posting patten is macham on monthly basis like tat lol! very bad! bt i gt a confession - i nvr blog cos been quite lazy recently =(

things r nt goin rite - my studies isn't wonderful, my past time activity is bcoming stressful + abit irritating + other stuff is juz plain confusing me!

but....

i hav hope! things will bcom btr... rite??? i hope it does!

hi - bye!

2009-02-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

allo allo!!!
byebye bye!!!

haha will update sum other time - Happy B'dae/CNY to those celebrating

2008-12-26T02:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUMBLIN!!!

miss the relatively carefree JC daes...
miss the dumb family!!!
wish can turn back the clock

anw, happy b'dae dumblin!!! hope u hav lotz of fun 2dae!

ahhhhhh... school starting soon... results coming sooner!!!

2008-12-25T13:03:00.005+08:00

!!!MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

NCOC 2008

NCOC 2008 - training comm

2008-12-20T20:21:00.008+08:00

I'm BACK!!! miss me??? haha...
been quite bz the past two mths wif my exams n ncoc along wif the usual PDs & other sjab activities

todae we had the passing out parade for NCOC'08. unlike previous yrs, tis yr's course was quite short - only 22 daes from start 2 finish! although having the course start immediately aft the end of my exams meant tat i had 2 prepare for it during my exams, i glad to say tat i had a wonderful pool of instructors supporting n helpin me every step of the way...

working wif my instructors tis yr was quite a different xperience as compared 2 previous yrs. dun noe hw 2 exp it bt i feel closer 2 them tis yr- really felt the 'family' spirit. i had a blast over the last 2 mths working wif them (& oso playing wif them esp mr. storeman! haha)
anw, wanna say a realli BIG THANK YOU to all my trng comm peeps - JianLin, HweePeng, WeiTing, EileenTeo, Charmaine, Denise, Rosalind, Priscilla, WaiCheung, Jeanette, SamSee, XiaoSam... oso nt 2 4get adi hu help us quite abit
btw, sry for my crankkiness & my awful singing haha... i hope ur'll enjoyed the xperience too...

SUPERLONG update!!!

2008-10-27T00:23:00.009+08:00

hihi,
i noe i've been neglecting my blog. so here i am to pay back my dues of posts n bored all u readers to death again.

Foot Drill Instructor Course

i PASSED!!! haha now juz need to practice to gain more confidence. ane1 wanna be my test subj??? haha. the course POC was held @ the ballroom on 21 Sept. relatively small scale event but it was definitely an un4getable xperience. anw, wanna thank all the facilitators, instructors. bsides learning how to train ppl in FD, i felt that the course really brought ppl frm the diff zones 2gether. haha its really true that there is nothing like footdrills under the sun to bond ppl. lol!!! to my fellow course mates, i really had fun. hope ur'll did too n congratz all! btw thx SO for attending the POC...fav words "SAPSUP!!!" haha

SJAB Walkathon
weather was relatively gd. glad to c many attended the evt despite it being close 2 their exams. managed to convince EG to go on the walk oso. during the walk noticed that the marshals were cadets so dcided to help them by doing rd marshaling. thx EG and WC for helping me out. did not take any pics myself but manage to get sum aft lookin arnd...

F1 Night Race PD

tis was the mega duty i referred to in sum of my previous posts. preparing for it was really ___! but im glad to say tat the work done was not for nothing. im oso thankful to the KAH and the other duty personnel, be they from the brigade or frm elsewhere, for rallying 2gether and supporting the event thru the quiet times and the noisy times, through the happy times and the hungry times =p. although not exactly smooth sailing, we manage to overcome most of the obstacles in our path, with every1's cooperation, n oso gain valuable insight to help nxt yr's committee. the duty was a success bcos of EVERYONE's contribution. THANK YOU!!! again nt alot of photos cos 4 sum strange reason i was running arnd alot...

nr one of the FA posts...

SCDF vehs during one of the xcercises

OTC 2008 POC
the peeps started their journey to become commissioned officers like 7mths ago. aft going thru the ups & downs and the struggles & triumphs they r finally here! i rmber my POC back in 2004. i tot that was the end, but turns out that its was the a beginning - a beginning to the life of a volunteer in SJAB. anw, i was happy to see them graduate - full of passion to serve the organization n the cadets... wish them all the best for their 'officerhood'

New Balance REAL RUN duty...
relatively normal... a few cases all-in-all manageable. was in the spotter team wif two of my daughters n bunch of kids from yt. they were all fun+cute+patient+interesting... have to hand it to the yt kids cos they persevered thru the duty (their 1st ext. duty i tink) n managed to stand my crappiness oso =p anw, like wad i tld them, hope they manage to learn sumthing n benefit from tat duty.
my zone comm

cute watch! u can imagine hw hungry we were aft 'running' the race

my 'daughters' who went for the duty & the spotter team (+ my ultra weird smile!)

school
well my exams are starting soon and i am almost totally screwed! muz piah n complete my studying

NCOC 2008 preparations...
we started preparing for this yr's NCOC. hope it will b a gd n memorable one not only for the trainees bt oso for the instructors oso...

well, tats all folks =)

Busy...

2008-10-11T14:32:00.001+08:00

hihi!!!

lotz of stuff n events happened recently which i will blog abt sum other time. now trying 2 catch up on my studies n prepare for my exams... for those visiting my blog, THANKS!!! hope u keep coming back! will hav new posts up soon!

NatCom Appreciation Dinner (Part 1???) ++ sum more stuff

2008-09-06T19:44:00.011+08:00

Halooooooooo!!!!! miss me??? haha
been abit lazy lately so didn't blog. but quite a few things hav happened...

AGI,
nothing much to say xcept tat for the amt of practice the ppl gt, they did do well. nt happi wif a few things but @ the same time happy 2 see sum ppl persevere thru the training. hopefully standards will get higher year on year...

ChinaTown Liteup Ceremony,
when wif few of the ytzens to ChinaTown 2 do duty for the lantern festival lite-up. 1st time taking control over a duty wif more than 5FAiders! not really a very happy xperience bt still it wasn't a disaster n having the yt-kids there was fun... hope they enjoyed the duty! im lookin 4ward to the nxt time i bcome control again cos tis is 1 thing i really want conquer - i want 2 b a better leader!!! i WILL b a better leader cos im goin 2 work hard @ it! haha

NatCom Appreciation Dinner,
the two gals teams n the officers invld wif trnging them went out for dinner @ SAKURA, YioChuKang. my 1st time 2 a sakura restaurant, quite a gd xperience. gd variety of food, a bit crowded n abit noisy cos of the high number of ppl though. dun really tink i'll b goin there much cos i still prefer alcarte to buffet bt still, its a gd place 2 go if u ever want halal buffet style restaurant. was surprised to recvd the gifts frm the teams cos i did 'torture' them quite abit during trng - hope they realli benefitted frm the trngs anw, realli hope 2 organise sum ting 4 the two guy teams tat represented the zone - frm anss n sji. bt i tink tat will hav 2 wait till later 2 c if can do anyting...

well, tmr's my xam day 4 FDI. hope i pass!!! actually, hope we all pass! gd luck to all taking their xam tmr =)

byebye...

yes, im still alive!

2008-08-21T22:11:00.003+08:00

haha student life has been a bit boring for me. run go sch, run go lecture, run go tutorial, run go home and the cycle continues. keep seeing more familiar faces. having sum trouble understanding sum topics but hopefully tat will sort itself out...

sjab life is abit erm... hectic? was juz looking at my walkathon collection- its pathetic. bt then again, btr than nothing i guess. preparation for possibly the yr's MEGA duty is going in multiple directions- won't elaborate though. juz wanna say JIAYOUZ 2 the ppl struggling on 2 pull it off. FDI, well its intersting. learning quite abit bt i tink every1 feel the time crunch. in any case, we hav gd instructors n dedicated facilitators - if there is a will, there will b a way! i juz realised its a gd opportunity to get 2 noe ppl frm other zones... pd wise, i guess we're kinda cooling off abit so no weekly pd choinging 4 the most part...

personal/social life erm... OHH YA!, i 4got - i dun hav one! quite sad rite??? lol but i believe its nvr too late 2 do smething abt it. so i shall do smetings - dream abt having one! =p haha

i tink i bored u enuf. dun really tink ane1 reads regularly anw haha... till nxt time, adieos =)

1st week of sch

2008-08-07T23:42:00.008+08:00

its almost the end of my 1st wk @ sch aft a 3 yr break. kinda glad cos my timetable pretty nice wif quite abit of 'study time' available ( but oso far 'study time' = 'tv time' / 'slp time' haha) and lotz of familiar faces from my pj/sji/jps daes... even recognize one/two frm police.

but my most favorite part of sch is the size of the campus! Weird but true! i luv the fact tat NTU is so big. tat way, i can satisfy my cravings 4 long walks (yes, contrary 2 my size, i LUV walking haha). n since the uni is built on a hill, smetimes goin frm one end to the other involves going hill climbing which so far i hav been enjoying cos its like the only xercise im doing...

toking abt xercise, i made a bet wif sme1 tat i will b slim by 15 Nov tis yr. only unfortunate thing is tat since making the bet, i've been piling on the weight rather than losing them haiz... hopefully 'hiking' arnd NTU will get me started haha

anw, lotz of ppl i noe r having birthdays tis 1st wk of aug so 2 all the AUGUST babies,

HAPPI HAPPI BIRTHDAY!!!

last note, to the NDP peeps -

the coming saturday marks the end of ur journey for NDP 2008. Over the 3mths or so, ur'll formed friendships/acquaintanceships wif 1nother. there were gd times n bads times; times tat ur'll were super HIGH and times when ur'll were super low. Sum of ur'll wait 4 tis 2 end while others dun wan it 2 end... however u look at it, i juz wanna say

it was realli fun wrking wif ur'll ( though i was there for the beginning part only). ur sincerity and dedication realli impressed me - despite ur sch work, corp commitment n other pressures, the fact tat ur'll still turn up wk aft wk to prepare urself to showcase st john during our nation b'dae celebration is really smethings. anw,

gd job so far - JIAYOU!
thx 4 the GREAT effort !
HOPE U ENJOY THE XPERINCE N BRING LOTZ OF SWEET MEMORY BACK WIF U

Becoming a student again!!!

2008-07-31T14:27:00.002+08:00

it's been a long tym since i last blogged. i was too lazy=p... im now reliving two of my past xperiences - one as a student, the other as a trainee

nxt wk i officially start schooling again at ntu. though the study system is like nothing i've gone thru b4, the feeling of anticipation, anxiousness dread n xam phobia is still the same. i haven't even started sch n im alrdy tinking wad will happen if i dun do well! haiz...

at the same time, i've oso enrolled in a course 2 improve my horrendous footdrill n make me a btr footdrill teacher... its hard bcoming a trainee again aft being a trainer 4 like half a decade but i really want 2 improve on my drill... mayb then i will find my sense of purpose in sjab.... mayb

so wish me luck ppl!

recently hav been cing my juniors geting down, emoing arnd for one reason or another n wad pains me is my lack of capability to help/ lift their spirits. its like tis xperience is reinforcing wad i've been feeling for the last 1-2yrs, abt me not being of use 2 the organisation bsides taking up space n making unnecessary noise at meetings... aft 9yrs, sjab has become an impt part of my life n i realli can't imagine my life wifout it. but then agian, i do not want 2 b a burden on my colleagues, the organisation or worse, my juniors! i really hope i find my sense of purpose n soon too..... haiz!

NFAHNC - the end!

2008-07-14T16:03:00.004+08:00

to all the four teams -

THANK YOU!!! u did us proud! despite the setbacks, ur'll persevered n tried ur best and reali, tats all ane1 can ask 4. hopefully, the competition was able to enrich ur'll wif not onli competition skills, but oso life skills.

to the two gals teams,

thx 4 enduring my crappiness, my nagging, my weird ideas and oso my beautiful 'London bridge' during the last 2 weeks. i realli hope tat the competition n the trainings benefited ur'll - nt onli 2 become better SJAB ppl but oso in ur life. the commitment, dedication and perseverance tat ur'll showed impressed me. i reali didn't regret training ur'll - my first time trng a nursing team ever & i hope u dun regret havong to endure my trng too =p

haha i wish i can sae more but i'm one of few wrds - juz hope tat ur'll understand hw much i appreciate ur'll n the effort ur'll put in (i oso, i hope ur'll get 2 read tis entry too! haha)

busy weekends

2008-07-07T19:56:00.003+08:00

the last weekend was jammed packed wif events as per usual - trng, ndp duty, rockamania duty

nat com trng wif the gals,
gd 2 see ur'll r taking our advice 2 heart. rite nw all i wanna say is JIAYOUZ n keep motivating one another yah

ndp duty
missed AP for the second yr to attend the duty =( but i guess it was necessary. duty was as per usual, no charlies. nothing remarkable abt the duty per sae but had the chance to watch the entire show.

rockamania 2008
ppl running up the walls haha but it was fun. really admire them 4 they speed agility n strength. nothing much really, gt to xplore tp abit though. n the ppl there were fun too

other stuff
- stopped working, preparing to start sch
my last work place was nice, work was tough but the rest did help out when they can. was touched especially when ppl stay back during breaks/ aft work juz 2 help instead of letting me clear the work on my own.

- juz made up my mind 2 challenge myself n get involved in a course tat teaches tings i generally wldn't try cos im nt gd at it. hope i pass!

- recently i hav been spending my weekends wif sjab. i sumtimes feel lye im neglecting my family... hope i find a way 2 balance things soon!

NFAHNC 2008

2008-07-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

title looks familiar? lol u're rite - its frm SO's blog

well' i having been torturing 4(at least) gals with my naggy talks but hope they can bring smeting away frm it... echoing wad SO said/wrote we dun mean to hurt ur feelins. we juz wanna b frank cos we value ur time n commitment. do nt take the scolding personally but do, at the same time, reflect on y we gav the scoldings yah... sincerely, at the end of the day, we really want u 2 benefit n do urself proud so JIAYOUZ kiez...

anw, juz a few things -

1. STUDY, PLAN and TRUST!!!

2. Divide & Conquer the manual!

lastly,
U r going into tis as 1 so stay tat way n support one another yupz...

anw, if u wanna share ur comments/complain/feedback abt my training, im all ears. u can find me at sjicpbs@hotmail.com

JIAYOUZ to all!

ps: wad i said abt me being 'disappointed' - it stands. but gd ting is tat its nt written in stone n im sure tat ur'll will make me feel different nxt time. at least i hope tat u will

TIRED & LOST!!!

2008-06-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

recently felt veri drained out of energy cos of work. nvr felt tis 'hopeless' n tired since my sji times haix... @ least the ppl im working wif r nice =). but work made me realize hw senseless sum products' packing is - product so small, package so big lol

i feel very very lost...
- my current life is juz a routine of work;eat;slp, work;eat;slp. dun hav the energy 4 anyting else lately though i TINK i wanna do stuff n enjoy my last mth of 'freedom' b4 becoming a student again

- trying 2 find my place in tat uniformed organization of mine... i noe i will b completely erm sad??? wifout it but still, where do i fit in?
its tiring 2 keep saying 'erm srry i dun understand; can translate into english?' i noe all of u r doing ur best 2 b mindful of my lang prob but its ur habit lol - n habits die hard!
nxt prob is finding 'my crowd' - feel out of place wif both the old n the young lol - old ppl toking too 'mature stuff' tat i dun really wanna tink abt, n i dun even understand even less b able 2 contribute to the young ones' conversations... smetimes envy JL - able 2 b mature yet mixed freely n comfortably wif the young ones. heck, i feel intrusive whenever i join them cos i sumtimes get the feelin tat they wld rather me nt there sighzzz...
then comes the matter of my contribution... wad hav i done so far? hav ane1 benefited? or m i juz a irritating pest?

so all in all, a very big SIGH!!!

on a lighter note,
* SE phones can charge via usb!
* a veri happi b'dae to mantou!!

recent history

2008-06-17T21:51:00.003+08:00

as usual spent my weekend at a duty - NUS indoor archery. nt much 2 tok abt really. did the duty wif SO n sum cadets frm one of 'our' schools... the cadets were fun but cld really wif the generation gap at times. nt surprisingly, i sumtimes dun understand them b'cos of the ting i've tld SO abt - juz i better start taking up a new lang huh? lolz.... the 2nd day of the duty was better cos of
1) sme1's impromptu b'dae celebration,
2) a relatively productive meeting,
3) smeting a grp of other initiated( though i guess it was more out of need than anything else but nevertheless...)
4) and finally lunch - surprisingly nice though i hav no idea was it was lolz...

anw, started work tis wk. gd colleagues but haven't gotten used 2 the fast pace of work yet. im really looking 4ward to keeping tis job till the end but i guess only time will tell...

anw, happi b'dae to her...

BORED!!!

2008-06-11T21:21:00.005+08:00

realised sumting, I'm bored! and when im bored, i eat! ohno!!! tis period of 'unemployment' is realli killing me lol... haiz... hope it doesn't last!

a recap of events...

1 June - NTU Bike rally
if ntu 'strongly encourages' ALL its students 2 take part in events like tis, i shldn't hav a prob slimming down =p... we started in EastCoast bight n early in the morning and ended up at EastCoast just as the sun was disappearing bhind the horizon - but in between we when all the way to NTU n back! 4 those of u nt familiar wif s'pore geography, EastCoast n NTU r at the opp ends of S'pore... actually, the route cover all 4 directions - North, South, East n West of Singpore... admire the determination of tis ppl to keep riding on thru rain n shine a Sunday when they can juz b enjoy the day lazing arnd. oso hav to take my hat off to the organizers... i mean the biggest thing i've ever organized is NCOC n even tat pales in comparison to the scale of tis event... anw, the alpha crew i was wif were relatively quiet n some1 fell in 'luv' wif my voice haha...lol

6 June - Zone Officers meeting
haha the first zone meeting my 'kids' have taken part in... all i can say 2 myself - 'the nxt batch's here!' which gt me tinking, if i had 2 leave sjab, where will i b? cld i ever bring myself 2 leave it? im sure tat my parents r realli all 4 it but they dun seem 2 understand the joy i get working wif these peeps... haiz i guess only time will tell if im able to find a way 2 keep them happi n still keep myself happi =( ...

7 June to 8 June - ACID camp 2008
definitely an eye opening experience. PasirRisPark activities in the morning was nt realli tat interesting n i suppose the rain did put a damper on things... still i gt the oppurtunity 2 sing my song to KS (those hu noe me noe tat i only sing 1 'song')so far my song hav gotten mixed reviews...

Sars when i sang 2 him at another duty i had earlier...

KS when i sang to him at the Park...
**disclaimer: NO human/animal/plant hav been harmed in any manner due 2 my singing.... yet **

as u can tell, im a great singer... lol

anw, i guess one the highlight of the duty for me was going back to my alma mater (i hope i spelt it rite?!?!)

tis was the place i spent 2 of my best years (though nt best in the academic terms!) - i realli grew as a person, a frend, a leader while i was there... it was here tat i developed g8 frendships n had my 1st real crush... i tink other than values n lesson PJC gave me, it oso gav me the 'Dumb Family' - a grp of ppl wifout whom i dun noe if i cld hav pulled thru the hardest of time while i was there... those were real gd times but atlas, gd times nvr last but at least memories do...

back to the duty, mostly uneventful wif a total 'charlie' count of less than 5??? anw met a rather frendly, down 2 earth doctor n many frendly instructors (SGLs/GLs) really hav 2 giv it 2 the volunteers 4 spending their time 2 giv the participants an opportunity to realli enjoy themselves...

on the way home aft duty dropped by 2 see SO's 'baby' which wasn't feelin too well will b brought 2 see the mechanic coming monday for sum 'surgery'...

lastly to the NDP ppl,
i won't get 2 c ur'll much ( can alreadi hear sum of u shouting in joy lol) but JIAYOU kiez... n rmber 2 look out 4 one another! make the brigade n urself proud by putting up a gd show yah, n most of all, try n enjoy the xperience...

Catching up wif time...

2008-05-31T22:48:00.003+08:00

been a lazy blogger... haiz nw i gt so much time 2 log but dun noe wad 2 blog (actually tats more or else always the case...HAIZZZZZ)

quick update...

Exercise NorthStar****************(keyboard no star so yah u muz use ur imagination haha)[lame i noe]
- not veri eventful but did happened to chanced upon one of my former supervisor frm my NS daes... though nt a long tok, it was still gd to catch up yah...

NDP trainings
- got 2 hand it 2 the cadets n the contingent comm... they r doing a realli gd job... though we may not always b wif ur'll ur'll r still here in our tots n as i said b4, u need / would like sumting tat u tink will enhance the training or ur welfare, juz say! dun b shy... haha anw, ur'll been doing a gd job so far - keep it up n rmber, ur'll r in tis 2gether so support one another yah...

AED course
- well, wad can i say, IM AED CERTIFIED!!! haha lol

well tats abt it - 2 wks of my super super super boring life!!!

btw, im getting FAT if u see me stuffing my face wif food... STOP ME!!! lol....

n to end it all, sum random pics

a few things,

2008-05-17T21:35:00.004+08:00

to the peeps taking part in NDP, gd job done so far n JIAYOU!!! rmber nothing worthwhile/good comes ezily kiez... I noe im not the one sweating in the hot sun - you are but i can only emphatise & tell u tat the end result will b worth it... we will support u in any way we can... do let us noe if there is anything u need or like n we'll seriously consider it yah...

to tat some1, i really wish tat i can tell u tat i will make things rite but i dun tink its fair 2 u if i make u false promises for the sake of our frendship...i really hope u'll c the matter as i hav - smeting to learn frm n try 2 apply the lessons learnt to create a better result nxt time. hopefully we can go back to being the old 'us' cos i really miss those times...

to my injured daughter, hope u get well soon yah...

well, my day ended on quite a bad note...
I AM DISAPPOINTED!!! 2 the one tat cos it, i hope u noe hu r n tat u noe & understand my stand on the issue(s)!

ps: closing note, a big congratz to YH on the new addition 2 ur family!!! hope ur bundle of joy is in the pink of health!

last week in review....

2008-04-28T21:37:00.006+08:00

thurs - ORD function

when in was in the force, my team had tis practice to celebrate the nsf's completion of the obligatory 2 years wif a farewell ceremony. my was combined wif KC's and was held last thurs at aloha loyang. first time there n lets say the 1st impression was quite gd. we were in a poolside terrace (my first chalet wif a pool!) wif a view of the sea too...
met up wif the guys at the shengshiong opp stn n we went to the chalet 2gether in a van suban rented... the trip was interesting - starting out wif a few slightly embrassing but on the whole entertaining occurance like finding out hw big the van's fuel tank is (normally a mundane ting but wif tis guys, even the mundane bcoms interesting! haha)
overcame my reservations n went swimming in my clothes (didn't bring swimming gear!) n was treated to haikal's potato salad n toby's performance. on the whole, i did enjoy tis chalet more then the rest but i at a lost for the reason... mayb i was no longer hw ridiculas i was???
anw, my sincere thx to all hu organised/attended/planned/contributed to my farewell...

fri - SJI sports dae!
a last minute appt... manage to get SARS to help me drive the alpha (thx lotz bro) to ToaPayoh stadium... almost no cases but gt a few things to say...
1. SARS + VKP + no map + vehicle = 80% chance of getting lost haha
we got lost trying to get there and got lost trying to get back... haha at least we kinda rmber to the route to ttsh n kkh
2. im surprised so many teachers frm SJI recognized me haha (nt so many recognized me while i was an officer at SJI lol)
3. i have to say a BIG thank you to ALL who helped to pull tis last min duty off from QZ from loaning me the equipment to SQ 4 helping me get the equipment to SARS 4 driving the veh to even ST from lending me the veh at such very short notice...
* thx to all the others i've bothered by my request 4 drivers too...

sat - steamboat dinner!!
went to HQ for smeting n saw the other peeps frm my zone at the AED course... hope they did alrite at it(heard horror stories abt it)!!! then later went out to hav dinner at the steamboat at GMC. nvr quite liked it cos i've always been a conservative eater preferring my food cooked b4 being served to me haha but im getting used 2 the idea... in any case, my company enjoyed the fd...

sun - steamboat dinner again!!!
aft all my apprehension abt steamboat dinner, guess where i went 4 dinner on sun - u're rite! steamboat again!!! haha lol nothing much but i did not feel tat it was rite 4 him 2 treat us 4 doing our job.... but i guess if it makes him happi...

Photos...

2008-04-21T11:30:00.003+08:00

SO remembering his childhood daes...

Sar's turn to walk down memory lane

Present from Phtoquiz 2008...

last week in review...

2008-04-19T22:21:00.005+08:00

it was quite a boring week punctuated with lotz of peeps b'dae... haha. it onli got less mundane when the wkend came arnd...

Temasek Regatta 2007 / Week zero Orientation Jam and Hop night

it was erm... an i-opener if nt anyting else. my 1st 'dragon boat' duty not very xciting but i guess it was interesting seeing how sum ppl prepared for the race wif their "up down up down up down..." haha. cases i encountered? splinters in feet... but poor SO. when i left for a sum time in the aftnoon to attend another evt he encountered an influx of cases at 1 pt of time stretching his resources... but all went well in the end... met the mfss peeps again cos they helped to cover the duty
in the aftnoon n oso met sum former ftp peeps hu helped to cover the 'jamming n hopping' part of the nite. hmmm my BP taking skills n bandaging skills still gt lotz of rm 4 improvement!

Photoquiz 2008

my 1st time at a tertiary lvl FA quiz/competition. it quite gd to noe tat sum ppl take the trouble to maintain n improve their FA skills n knowledge even while being bz wif their hectic JC schedule... its was n enjoyable xperience i wld say n i was quite impressed wif sum of the ppl i saw there - the skills n knowledge they xibited (tis "ppl" does not onli incld the competitors but oso the organizers as well) kudos goes to organizers esp the 3 hu had to 'tahan' my nonsense when it came time to finalize the scores (u three will noe hu u are though i doubt any will read my blog... haha but if u r... thx for ur help in the judging n patience in listening to my 'crap' when toking at the back of the LT...)
gt sumting nice from them... flowers! n real ones too!!! not to mention the other memorabilia. haha im quite astonished at the trouble they went thru juz to get me that token of appreciation.. (will upload photos sum other time...)

Zone 3 Games Day...

went 2 sji a little too late to catch any of the competition but was veri impressed n happi wif the school's response... all in all, 7 out of 9 schools participated in the event. i wld that it was a success cos it allowed the diff schools 2 meet in a non FACOM/NCOC/AGI setting n reali interact wif one another... we hav onli managed to hold few of such activities so far... muz reali thank the peeps frm sji inlcding the two Mr Kohs (Gary n Marcus), the other sji TICs n oso the peeps from the participating schools 4 contributing to the success of the evt

anw, since we were alrdy there, SO suggestion playing badminton so there we were, SO, SARS, Gary Koh (the one tat inspired me 2 bcom an officer) n urs truely (myself) stretching, running, smacking and more often then not - picking the shuttlecocks of the grnd... haha. I did really enjoyed myself (though i suppose i 'threw' my face trying to play badminton... nw i guess sum of the sac peeps noe hw bad i am at sports haha) but ya... those were.. i guess one of those happi / relaxing moments that r few n far in between....

on a closing note,
>to all the peeps (mfss, photoquiz ppl n the others) hu hav gone out of ur way to show me ur appreciation / thx- thanks much...it was my pleasure 2 b inlvd reali
>to all the OCTs, all the best for ur theory exam tmr

and 2 all celebrating ur b'daes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Updates

2008-04-13T21:08:00.010+08:00

yup its certainly been sumtime since i've blog... let see... wads has happened in my uninteresting life?

went for a few PDs recently...

boulderactive @ PlazaSing

abit far a shot but i guess better than nothing...

pic of the sum of us at the duty (3 ppl not in pic)...

the duty was more of a show for the eyes rather than the dispensing of FA knowledge n skills... got to c my EC. she a little taller nw i looks a little more naughty??? haha anw i got a new EC whom i n SO hav nicknamed 'Headache Girl' haha though the name dun really describe her its certainly a unique name! haha hopefully i get to c her sumtime soon... however,i hav decided tat she will not be more then sugar for my eyes... sadly...

nxt on the list... Boys' Brigade Quest 2008

went over to ytss quite late in the night to stayover cos the duty started at like 5++ in the morning... poor SO, made him wait in the Alpha at my carpark for more than an hr b4 i was finally ready

nope tats not the Alpha when its at my carpark but it is parked!!! hahaha lame i noe but thats me...

sum shots of ytss and beautiful shot taken at kent ridge park ( i tink - too memorized by the beauty of teh place to rmber the name =P)

PD not much case for my side though we did respond to a casualty wif initial diagnoses of P1 type case but it turn out 2 be nothing really - i tink that was the first time i sat in an Alpha tat SO was driving to respond to a P1 case. i muz say he and the V-Com mr. R did an excellent job - balancing safety of traveling on the rd 2gether wif the urgency of needing to reach the charlie... eventually had to leave early to attend a HQ ceremony (thx to mr. D for the lift)

MFSS sports heats and sports day

the sports heats was held much earlier and the sports day more recently... got to use the dressings (which hav been sitting idle in my FA pouch 4 quite sum time).. haha but the peeps there did carry themselves n handle the charlies well. gd job guys!!!
later joined them of one of their corp events at MindsCafe... it was a real eye opener n throughout tat day gt to noe a different side of sum people n really gt to noe about them n hu they r n all... n i had fun! though in my usual style i didn't really part take in the games juz seeing tis ppl in a 'non sjab' context was fun n different

the MFSS peeps n the view of CBD from MindsCafe...

bsides this really not much else...

CAA presentation (thx Sars, DT and HS 4 accompanying me)its was rather cute wad sum ppl did n i was rather annoyed abt 1 ting though i rather nt mention it here...

i've started work but i muz say im really nt tat gd at it - perhaps i will get better wif time but i really can't c me doing tis all the way till aug...

i guess tats really abt it...

ps: to tat sme1... i noe its been difficult for you... srry i can't walk down tat path wif u cos its 1 better taken alone. but i will b waitin at the end n when u're ready, u will have ur answers...

Fustrations...

2008-04-01T18:16:00.003+08:00

I HATE BEING TAKEN FOR GRANTED!!!

when u nd ppl n no one steps up, im volunteered... nvm the fact tat u still belittle me n treat me like crap at times but i still stayed on. nw when u hav smeting interesting, u 4get me! bloody crap!

FACOM 2008

2008-03-24T11:39:00.003+08:00

well, its over!

but not the meetings, complaints, feedback, requests.... i suppose these are necessary for continual improvement but smetimes i feel tat they do unfairly targeting @ certain ppl.

aneways, for those who are contributing 2 the feedback n all,
do keep them coming in cos tats the onli way the competition process will improve...
for those ppl hu have become the targets,
well, hang in there n try to identify the learning points from these comments.

its not ez to work so hard n strive 2 do ur best for smeting yet when everyting done yet there is a total lack of appreciation n smetimes even worst, ppl blaming you for smeting u may feel its not ur fault. i've been there n, in all honesty, hav smetimes oso done the same 2 ppl wifout finding out the full facts 1st- ALL OF WHICH I DO REGRET!

all i can say is, we muz try to learn from very ting - good or bad. we can only do things to the best of our current capability. will things get better? yup definitely cos we r constantly improving. dun be stifled by unpleasant remarks cos they may juz b like diamonds hidden in mud. wash of the unpleasantness n try 2 get the good out of it.

FOR THE COMPETITORS...

i feel that the true benefit of FACOM lies in the process n not the outcome. to hav won or lose at the competition is a matter that is decided yearly. but to hav won or lost against the challenges n triumphed in times of difficulty faced during the competition trngs r the results tat will last for life. dedication to the team, the commitment to excel, the discipline to stay focus n the perseverance to struggle thru r wad you really take away from COM n the trngs tat u will 4ever rmber.

IF YOU HAVE DONE YOUR BEST, NO ONE CAN ASK FOR MORE! IF YOU HAVEN'T ACHIEVED UR GOAL, DUN GIV UP COS IF YOU DO, THEN U'VE REALLY FAILED! TRY! THE FUTURE IS NOT WRITTEN IN STONE! EVEN IF YOU CAN'T COMPETE ANEMORE DOSEN'T MEAN TAT WAS UR LAST CHANCE. MAKE SURE PPL BENEFIT FROM UR XPERIENCE SO TAT THRU THEM, U TOO CAN REACH THE GOALS!!!

it is heart breaking to see tat on 1 hand, there are those hu r happy cos the have met or even surpassed their xpectations but on the other hand, to c tears of sadness cos sme felt tat they hav failed. do consider wad the results truely mean n decide wads more impt - numbers which represent the score or the skills n frendship u take away frm COM....

Yes! I'm still alive....

2008-03-17T02:16:00.002+08:00

been too lazy 2 blog recently...

well juz a recap of things tat happened since the last post...

went on ops deployment n got to patrol arnd... nice way to end two yrs of being a civil servant. the last day was uneventful cos i rushed arnd n also my team was working so no time for me really...

took on vice chair of FACOM 2008. agree wif sars tat its alot of stuff 4 a one day evt but i guess juz as long the kids look 4wards 2 n enjoy it, it will be worth it... on tat note: GOOD LUCK FOR ALL COMPETITING TEAMS N JIAYOU!!!

was over at yt to train they AC team. interesting bunch of peeps. hopefully they dun giv up n do they best at com... in any case, i hope they dun hav any hard feelings abt teh way i trained them... hmmm wonder wad they realli felt abt the training...

otc 2008 started. we hav 16 trainees n 5 trainers taking part... a bumper crop i shld say. i do hope n wish the best 4 all of them!!!

had to take a rain check on meeting up wif my daughters for lunch last sat.. was juz too tired n sick actually... guess nt being in fit condition during trng is taking its toll....

well, thats all i guess. boring i noe but then, what else can b xpected from me?

Photos finally...

2008-02-29T00:22:00.005+08:00

CAA 2008

2008-02-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

all i can say is...

4 GOLD, 3 SILVER, 1 BRONZE

well done every1... cos every1 has improved n met their target! i noe alot of hardwork went to producing such commendable results n u all deserves a pat on ur back!

n for the 1st time since i took up tis apptment, my calculation was supper chun differing by like less than 1%.... Yay! (ok lame but yah....)

hectic weekend followed by doing nthing at all for the last few days!

2008-02-16T02:45:00.009+08:00

on 16 feb sat had chingay in the evening. it was quite ok. highlights:
1. MPSS ppl (tis time more of them!) n it was more of a fleeting glance cos they called to infd gt one casualty tat fell. ok so i n hp went over n 'treated' the casualty. it was a slight gazing on the knee. funny thing was, treatment took mayb abt 2 min. photo taking wif the mpss sjab peeps hmmm mayb 15min.... lol. 1/2way thru the photos noticed the casualty there looking lost lol...
haha... anw she was ok, they were happy n i had fun....

2. 3 more casualties at FA pt 6. 2 exhauation n 1 'weak ankle'. had to call in an 'urgent msg' thru the comms when the first charlie cos they were going on and on abt food and picking up the patrol/ FA point ppl. oddly, i tink if i rmber correctly, aft saying urgent msg, they were still continueing their conversation. it wasn't unitl a while later tat i herad JH responding to my 'urgent msg' call.... i guess we still hav sum way 2 improve on the comms procedure... anw, found out tat i can b d_mned reassuring when i want to b lol.... the way i reassured the guy even surprised me!... anw none to hotel

did nt join them for the post chingay dance duty cos S.O wanted us 2 get sum rest. tat was gd but i kinda like to hav gone 4 tat duty but anwaies, we can't hav everyting rite?

on 17 feb, sun had 2 duties.

morning had NUS biatlon. on casualties at all 4 my point. had two gals to do duty wif... they were nt bad... pretty intelligent n able to stand my lamery (while sitting down!) had a bit of trouble finding the FA pt n ended up walking quite a bit dragging poor pris n yy wif me. i guess u can say we juz went 4 a moring stroll in East Coast. me wif my ear piece n like a tourist looking at my map frm time to time n the 2 of them in the full brigade u.... haha.. wad a sight! met "Mr Glove" at the duty n we adopted him as our mascot n yy said my songs OLD FASHION LOL!!! hmmm they r nt old, juz evergreen! haha... by the end of duty, pris was having a realli bad sore throat, yy was super bored n tired n i, well lets juz say tat nt slpping was making me delirious n oso my sides were sore... (hmmm...) anw, oso had 2 pity bee leng frm anss cos kept suaning her... wad 2 do, they day b4 she wifout her contact lenz or specs was like a blind bat lol... quite cute 2 she her try to figure hu r u when shen can't c lol... (srry ms tan!)

chinatown closing ceremony was nt tat bad. quite uninteresting xcept tat i found out tat sme1 went all the way home 2 rest but ended up watching CSI instead. hw she cld keep awake is surprising lol... duty itself stank! literally! cos the canal was stinking quite badly 4 sme reason anw, no casualty, all went well.

aft the hectic weekend, i did nothing 4 the nxt four days but eat, slp n use computer. juz realised tat i did nt even leave my house 4 anything lol... and tmr, its back 2 wrk. hope i can get up in time! n hopefully u r nt tat bored tat u r drooling @ ur keyboard aft reading tis long, boring post. if u r, then SRRY 4 being boring! if u r nt, then congrats for ur threshold for boring stuff is quite high... YAYAYAY... ok... lame... bb now

SAC FA refersher...

2008-02-16T02:45:00.003+08:00

nt much 2 say xcept tat had to take taxi there n it was soo X lol.... haiz, muz plan time better nxt time!

b4 the class, they invited us to toss 'loh hay??' wif them. my 1st time n it was quite interesting i muz say... anw thx for inclding us!

the class itself was quite ok. in my usual long winded style i took sum teachers thru sum bandaging. hope i did nt piss sars off cos i diverted from plan quite a bit i tink... well, i truely hope tat the teachers were able to learn sumting from the refresher cousre n tat they will nt hav to use they knowledge cos the students will nt get injured during the camp (erm... ya). to the sac'ians go 4 the different camps, hav a safe n enjoyable camp!!!

Chingay Rehearsal...

2008-02-16T02:23:00.004+08:00

was under the shears brigdge again for the umpteen time on a pd (i guess there's sum strange connection tat keep geeting me being deployed under the bridge 4 duties...) anw, was quite boring at first then had a little xcitment. a few interesting things happened...

1) gt deployed with S.O. as his one n only ambulance crew. pity him! he had to do duty wif sme1 hu cldn't treat well or drive! but luckily, my aura of 'hengness' came back 2day. only 1 'hotel' case...

2) gt to c a racing car up close. but even tat did nt stand up 2 how interested i was in the flatbed truck tat was carrying the truck... how odd!

3) gt 2 c the macpersonians ( inclding my 2 darling daughters!) wif their flags n all. well to u gals n boy (only saw 1 dun noe if there r more =P), didn't manage to catch ur performance but judging from how tired n 'high' u guys were, i can c tat u put in much effort into it. on b1/2 of those watching the show being entertained by u peeps, THANK YOU! heard tat u ppl reached back quite late. hope all of ur'll manage to get sum hot supper n a gd rest. all the best for tmr!!!

4) my one any only hotel case 4 2day. a poor gal was hit by a float casing her to injure her lower legs... interesting cos its the1st time i had to handel a 'hotel' charlie on my own (cos S.O. was driving, the other officer was 'new' to hotel charlies). it was a stark contrast to my past 'hotel' charlies where i just assits, following instructions from the more xperienced ones...evaluatuion?: quite a bad handover from grd crew to us cos we did nt manage to get the particluars/mechanics of injury/dianosis from the grnd crew n had to trouble the gal n her frend by restarting while proceeding to hotel... anw, my amatuer questioning of the casualty n visual dianosis of the gal oso like _____. we handed her over to the doc n nurses wif more qns than ans!haiz... hope she recovers soon!

n that was pd xperinece for today.... or rather, ystd! =P...nitez

21 years... n counting!

2008-02-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

its been 21 yrs since this poor earth had to endure my torture.... poor thing!!! haha well, i'll try to be gd!

thx to all hu hav wished me in ur mani ways. Noe ur'll r quite bz wif CNY celebrations but still took the time to call/sms/msg me... thx lotz. the day was sweeten by ur sweet tots =)

2008-02-07T14:20:00.000+08:00

hAPPY cHINESE nEW YR!!! may ur coming yr b filled wif gd health, sucess n much happiness!!!

happenings

2008-02-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

i noe i hav been neglecting to blog but i guess it was for the best.... anw, here is a quick look back of the last 2 wks of my crappy life...

CNY lightup duty
ok i guess. nt much to say xcept tat i still feel.... isolated. can't follow conversations others r having cos i either dun understand/speak chinese or that im nt interested in the conversation topic at all... i guess the highlight of the pd was meeting ppl hu had gone there juz to 'enjoy' the party - like this officer frm my stn n a gal hu is my sjab junior/counterpart. the latter did surprise me (in a gd way i suppose) and i was at a lost for wrds b4 i jus mumbled sum wrds to her... no offense hor! it wasn't u! it was me!.... anw, moving on, spend the rest of the juz standing arnd occupying my mind... i wld like to ask y i keep asking to go for duties when i dun really enjoy them?

my team
found out tat they no longer c me as 1 of them... haiz... aft all tis time. all ur'll had 2 do was giv me a call. i guess even tat was too much trouble for u guys! srry to inconvenience u guys all tis while

zone meeting
not really very eventfully but did take on new portfolio n found out sji sjab has changed OC... wanted to get smething 4 Sars but found out tat he was nt going... o well

ord function
i must a thank you to those tat spend time to organise it however, in the interest of being frank, i felt tat i wasted my time there....

terry's b'dae
went quite late aft work... was touched to noe tat tng n a few others waited for me to com although it was getting late for them... thx guys! as i said, we may look different but we sure still act the same lol... found out tat terry was leaving in like 2 wks time for ________ . too bad its sooooo soooooon if nt cld try n arrange a gathering of sqd Aquarius. hopefully lotz come for the sunday prog still noticed tat i can't juz relax to hav fun!!! o well, ALL THE BEST TERRY!!!

speaking of birthdays,
lotz to ppl having been celebrating theirs recently. a big fat HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all these ppl. may all their wishes come true n their life b fill wif happiness.

n today, i learnt a super duper important lesson today. which is.....

to juz keep my mouth shut while at work!

anw, i tink i hav spoil enuf peeps mood wif my post so i shall juz stop here!

apologies

2008-01-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

hihi....

been too tired/pissed off to blog. will write more nxt time. srry

post ord

2008-01-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

i wonder wad i shld do hav i ord? gt an invitation frm cisco tats quite attractive in the $$$ sense but i suppose the job scope will b like crap n i'd probably hav less time for sjab....

in any case, hav quite a bit of stuff regrding my ord coming up... sianz...
oso gt CAA stuff to settle....

i guess its time to choing!

the future???

2008-01-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

when to sac to help out wif the orientation but ended up feelin very xtra... thx SO 4 being there wif me or i wld hav been very lost lol... been out of touch wif sch corp feel like the gap is growing.. haiz...

anw, saw sum gd things at sac...hopefully they can build on tat... anw, JIAYOU k gals!!!

later had dinner wif YJ. she eat so little lol... cannot cannot! muz feed my daughter more!

haha ya tats abt it. today veri short cos ppl read ystd's post veri sian alreadi =p... btw happy b'dae to wei ting!!!

Updates...

2008-01-03T17:13:00.000+08:00

falling back to my old habit of being too lazy to blog... smetimes think that it won't matter cos no one will read mah. anw...

chalet for PD appreciation...
sponsored by the big big peeps of hq n organised by tony n frendz, it was quite hmmm ok i guess. (wad else to expect when i only spend like 12+ hours there???) it was at home team chalet at pasir ris which was actually quite nice cos its quite secluded... but took 3hrs to reach there from my work place cos i decided to accompany ahbang fandi n haikal home along the north-south line. but nvm, atleast gt see a few eye candies... back to the chalet, gt to meet rafiq n aiseah son, shafiq n his polar... ( n cute little toy bear... will post pics sum other time). shafique is quite a bubbly cute kid hu is very sociable lol... ended up he was entertaining me tat nite cos the rest were either playing majong, toking buisness or engrossed in their bk. so i spent the nite entertaining the kid, watching tv n accompanying SO on his drive... partly i guess its my fault cos i really lack the ability to relax n hav fun ba... anw, woke up quite late nxt morning only to c tat SO has finished washing his car (wanted to help him but too late lol or was SO too early? hmmm... ) found out tat raymond was the eldest in the family n that he cooks! quite well too... thx for the breakfast bro! but had too leave slightly earlier than planned cos i decided to go ytss help sars teach FA to npcc kids tat afternoon b4 work. Tony was kind enuf to give me a lift accompanied by his dear n dennis hu was goin to hq to conduct a class (thx bro!). so ya, tats how my time at the chalet went... like i said, it was ok but oso nice in a way. everytime we go out for duty n chiong, there was always sum tension n stress in order to deliver to the best of our abilty. the chalet was the only time i saw everyone relaxed juz having fun n enjoying each other company. it was really sumting to c a grp of ppl frm different walks of life come together in way tat they work well together bcos of their respect n kinship wif one another... i hope i can develop tat kind of relationship wif others sum day...

FA class at ytss...
reached quite late cos i was really cramming too many things into my day's schedule... anw the class was.... relatively nonreactive n ultimately i left wondering hav they really benefited cos the time allocated to us was really short. anw, sars n SO did their best given wad they had but was a little surprised when i found out tat there was no liaison frm ytss sjab there wif us. worse still, it seems tat ytsjab were juz breaking camp n they were all kinda surprised to c us there cos i tink they dun noe abt the FA class lol... anw, yada yada yada, we wrapped up there n gt a lift to hq frm SO...

had an early dinner wif Sars then went to cut my hair which turned out super short but i guess i asked 4 it anw. but the most xpensive thing was like the taxi ride to work which cost like 30 buck!!! it used to cos on 20 lol!

at work heard tat apit gt into a rta n was warded at ttsh... so in the usual DHQ Alpha spirit, we went to visit him... turned out he was alrite wif a few abrasions here n there.... i guess we r all thankful for that.

than rushed back home to hav a quick nap than gt my dad to send to wl mrt to meet up wif the other peeps preparing 4 the bbq. quite paiseh cos made them wait like 1/2hr for me... (haiz my punctuality is like crap!!!) took a bus to the sheng shiong there n shop shop n shop (i shld hav prepared a better shopping list) eventually i came to a conclusion tat if i were to prepare 4 the bbq on my own, it wld b a total disaster lol... by the time we left sheng shiong was alreadi 6pm - the starting time of the bbq! luckily SO, charmaine, jeanette, yijun n nisa when earlier to start the charcoal burning. aft detouring to my house to collect sum stuff, we went o hq when along way we heard the dreaded news tat it was raining cats n dogs at hq n worst still, the rms were nt opened! later found out frm uncle nathan tat nobody tld him abt our bbq. luckily he was kind enuf to go check the booking bk n oso acceding to our request regrding the showerrm.... thx uncle! aw, had the bbq at the back porch which when quite ok.... the turnout was quite bad actually... quite abit of officers hu were supposed 2 come had to take a rain check n for the NCOs... well i guess they r quite bz wif sch reopening soon n all... but i muz say tat those tat came were pretty bored cos there were nt much to do cos of the rain xcept to play cards, break dance/listen music or get cooked while cooking at the temp bbq pit haha... poor clare n charmaine! they gt smoked the most esp clare! gts lotz of fd (gt to thx charmaine cos she really took alot of effort to prepare the chickern 4 us marinating it n all) left n we ended up bbqing till abt 3am at which time we still having quite a no. of pckts of frozen fd n a whole tray of bee hoon... cleaning up was slightly more fun 4 me cos the whole night i was nt doin anything really...

aft showering n waking up the kids to ask them to shift to zone rm n slp, i too went too slp leaing poor huimin n charmaine awake looking at us guys slp lol... anw woke up at abot 3+ n hobbled (cos by feet were in really bad condition aft the cleaning) over to tekka with was a very painful xperience. after spending like 3hrs walking arnd window shopping, finally bought the stuff n hobbled back to hq cos cld nt get any taxi... on the way out frm hq met charmaine (frm otc hotel '04). was quite surprised to c her n she looks gd as ever... toked awhile then left cos we were really tired...

dropped kamal off at his house then came back home. was a bit irritated cos i cld nt slp. but anw, cleaned the house n prepared for prayers in the nick of time (finish preparation at 1159pm 4 the midnt prayers lol!!!) n then started my long sms to peeps to wish them. oddly it took abt 1hr to finish sms lol then had to rush n slp cos gt wrk in the morning n i really dun want to b late on the 1st work day on the 1st day of 2008 !

so ya... i guess by now most of u reading this post wld hav already fallen aslp or hav hoped to another blog/website/ task... in any case, if you r still here...

Thank you for boring yourself with my post of my extremely 'interesting' life hav a nice day n do tag!

p.s: thx those hu orgainsed the chalet, bbq n oso to those hu attended the bbq despite being bz preparing 4 sch n work.... HAPPY NEW YEAR every1...

Reflect n realise...

2007-12-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

lotz of things been happening lately... things like sun rising, wind blowing, sun setting etc =P

firstly, my deepest condelence to the family of the late Mr Stephen Khit. may U rest in peace sir.

secondly, i just realised that I have done a little over twenty PD this yr. it quite little lol... but then again, i dun seem to be able to contribute much at PDs anyway... did FA duty at Orchard Christmas Caroling session/party on xmas eve which was where i made my third reflection

watching all the party goers at orchard hav fun, it suddenly stuck me that i was nvr able to juz relax n hav fun. im juz too paranoid i guess, obsessed wif work n wad ppl thought abt me.... haiz sme1 commented tat i look very fierce at the xmas duty n i hav to agree wif her lol. i tink i look more fierce than the aetos security personnel on duty nearby... a little odd rite?

anw, on a lighter note...

blated MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! n HAPPY BOXING Day!!!

and to the one n onli ms dumblin, happy b'dae!!!

Sianz...

2007-12-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

Had NCOC debrief today. it was not as i expected it would b but o well, i guess its time to call a close to tat chapter. Came home and slept all the way... So sianz... been sleeping alot lately and my work quality has been slipping. dun noe if im juz worn out or wad... to sian to do reflection oso but anw...

have the appreciation chalet and ncoc outing coming up in one week... hope it wld b a success cos they r really putting their effort into it...

n im goin off to slp again!!!

All the Best!!!

2007-12-18T12:41:00.000+08:00

A little late but nevertheless, all the best for those collecting their N-lvl results... rmber, gd or bad, wads important is how you move on to develop urself into a successful person in life... ALL THE BEST!!!

JiaYou!!!

2007-12-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

today's a day to encourage...

Had a meeting wif the committee this afternoon at AMK Mac (yeah there again!!!ahhh...) can see sum ppl's interest lvl weaning off... is it b'cos of the the difficulty of the project or my presence i wonder... anw, juz like to tell u guys that nothing worth doing can be done easily... u started a ball rolling - ball that is starting to again momentum n recognition. dun stop n let others claim the credit for wad u guys started k... we r behind you n will be there by ur side during the most trying times so JIAYOU!!! anw, to derek , sars n han song - thx for ur support for the outing. it really means a great deal to us...

Later came my first xperience at 'vehicular operation'...man im such a 'hardbreaker' haha.... im the only one in my class to fall lol... n not once but twice!!! bloody piaseh! anyhow, i shan't b discouraged! I WILL CONCUR IT!!! for the mean time, let me go attend to my aching legs!...

Late... Again!!!

2007-12-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

haiz... late for another class. now days, i see a hole burning in my pocket because of my lack on punctuality - taxi fare, rebooking classes.... i been wondering, what happened to me? why the downhill spiral when i shld at the peak of discipline???

Chalets...

2007-12-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! this is my second blog cos i decided that the blogs at friendster was gd but nt really wad i wanted..... hopefully this blog will see more commitment from me than my first...

dec muz b a time for chalets cos there are invitation for it pouring in from everywhere - from work, sjab etc

6 dec - Team Chalet (work)
was different from the other team chalets that i have been to... smeting was missing but can't figure out what... anw, this was the first time i spent so much time at a team chalet n i muz say that the guys that slogged to plan n organize our chalets really to deserve much for all their efforts... so THX GUYs!!! its was nice to hang out after work wif the team but still a little awkward... anw, to apit, cai cai, fadly n simon happy ORD!!!

10 dec - Hitler Chalet (sjab)
this was the chalet experience that really made me wanna pen down my tots... in my 20 years, i have met many different ppl n have many different friends n even more acquaintances but i rarely got close to anyone of them. i only started getting close to those that matter about me only during my jc days starting wif the Dumb family (hope u guys r doing good!) and moving on n on... but this was the first yr i really started getting close to the ppl that have been wif me the longest n have really put up wif all my crap - my fellow sjab peeps. this group of ppl hav played a big part of my life especially for the last 4yrs but tis chalet really reminded me on how important they are to me a also for the first time, how they feel about me (i tink)... it is times like tis that really make me tink twice about throwing in the towel... haiz... the power of friendship... anw, the Hitler' 06 peeps n the rest that put in so much effort into the chalet, sorry tat i was such a wet blanket k.... will definitely make it up to u 1 day n most of all, thank you from the bottom of my heart...

coming soon - SJRU chalet... (sjab)
this really has got me tinking, am i a duty siao? n really, wad do i bring to these duties besides being a hassle n an obstruction in sum ppl's way???