recently felt veri drained out of energy cos of work. nvr felt tis 'hopeless' n tired since my sji times haix... @ least the ppl im working wif r nice =). but work made me realize hw senseless sum products' packing is - product so small, package so big lol
i feel very very lost...
- my current life is juz a routine of work;eat;slp, work;eat;slp. dun hav the energy 4 anyting else lately though i TINK i wanna do stuff n enjoy my last mth of 'freedom' b4 becoming a student again
- trying 2 find my place in tat uniformed organization of mine... i noe i will b completely erm sad??? wifout it but still, where do i fit in?
its tiring 2 keep saying 'erm srry i dun understand; can translate into english?' i noe all of u r doing ur best 2 b mindful of my lang prob but its ur habit lol - n habits die hard!
nxt prob is finding 'my crowd' - feel out of place wif both the old n the young lol - old ppl toking too 'mature stuff' tat i dun really wanna tink abt, n i dun even understand even less b able 2 contribute to the young ones' conversations... smetimes envy JL - able 2 b mature yet mixed freely n comfortably wif the young ones. heck, i feel intrusive whenever i join them cos i sumtimes get the feelin tat they wld rather me nt there sighzzz...
then comes the matter of my contribution... wad hav i done so far? hav ane1 benefited? or m i juz a irritating pest?
so all in all, a very big SIGH!!!
on a lighter note,
* SE phones can charge via usb!
* a veri happi b'dae to mantou!!
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
recent history
as usual spent my weekend at a duty - NUS indoor archery. nt much 2 tok abt really. did the duty wif SO n sum cadets frm one of 'our' schools... the cadets were fun but cld really wif the generation gap at times. nt surprisingly, i sumtimes dun understand them b'cos of the ting i've tld SO abt - juz i better start taking up a new lang huh? lolz.... the 2nd day of the duty was better cos of
1) sme1's impromptu b'dae celebration,
2) a relatively productive meeting,
3) smeting a grp of other initiated( though i guess it was more out of need than anything else but nevertheless...)
4) and finally lunch - surprisingly nice though i hav no idea was it was lolz...
anw, started work tis wk. gd colleagues but haven't gotten used 2 the fast pace of work yet. im really looking 4ward to keeping tis job till the end but i guess only time will tell...
anw, happi b'dae to her...
1) sme1's impromptu b'dae celebration,
2) a relatively productive meeting,
3) smeting a grp of other initiated( though i guess it was more out of need than anything else but nevertheless...)
4) and finally lunch - surprisingly nice though i hav no idea was it was lolz...
anw, started work tis wk. gd colleagues but haven't gotten used 2 the fast pace of work yet. im really looking 4ward to keeping tis job till the end but i guess only time will tell...
anw, happi b'dae to her...
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
BORED!!!
realised sumting, I'm bored! and when im bored, i eat! ohno!!! tis period of 'unemployment' is realli killing me lol... haiz... hope it doesn't last!
a recap of events...
1 June - NTU Bike rally
if ntu 'strongly encourages' ALL its students 2 take part in events like tis, i shldn't hav a prob slimming down =p... we started in EastCoast bight n early in the morning and ended up at EastCoast just as the sun was disappearing bhind the horizon - but in between we when all the way to NTU n back! 4 those of u nt familiar wif s'pore geography, EastCoast n NTU r at the opp ends of S'pore... actually, the route cover all 4 directions - North, South, East n West of Singpore... admire the determination of tis ppl to keep riding on thru rain n shine a Sunday when they can juz b enjoy the day lazing arnd. oso hav to take my hat off to the organizers... i mean the biggest thing i've ever organized is NCOC n even tat pales in comparison to the scale of tis event... anw, the alpha crew i was wif were relatively quiet n some1 fell in 'luv' wif my voice haha...lol
6 June - Zone Officers meeting
haha the first zone meeting my 'kids' have taken part in... all i can say 2 myself - 'the nxt batch's here!' which gt me tinking, if i had 2 leave sjab, where will i b? cld i ever bring myself 2 leave it? im sure tat my parents r realli all 4 it but they dun seem 2 understand the joy i get working wif these peeps... haiz i guess only time will tell if im able to find a way 2 keep them happi n still keep myself happi =( ...
7 June to 8 June - ACID camp 2008
definitely an eye opening experience. PasirRisPark activities in the morning was nt realli tat interesting n i suppose the rain did put a damper on things... still i gt the oppurtunity 2 sing my song to KS (those hu noe me noe tat i only sing 1 'song')so far my song hav gotten mixed reviews...
Sars when i sang 2 him at another duty i had earlier...
KS when i sang to him at the Park...
**disclaimer: NO human/animal/plant hav been harmed in any manner due 2 my singing.... yet **
as u can tell, im a great singer... lol
anw, i guess one the highlight of the duty for me was going back to my alma mater (i hope i spelt it rite?!?!)
tis was the place i spent 2 of my best years (though nt best in the academic terms!) - i realli grew as a person, a frend, a leader while i was there... it was here tat i developed g8 frendships n had my 1st real crush... i tink other than values n lesson PJC gave me, it oso gav me the 'Dumb Family' - a grp of ppl wifout whom i dun noe if i cld hav pulled thru the hardest of time while i was there... those were real gd times but atlas, gd times nvr last but at least memories do...
back to the duty, mostly uneventful wif a total 'charlie' count of less than 5??? anw met a rather frendly, down 2 earth doctor n many frendly instructors (SGLs/GLs) really hav 2 giv it 2 the volunteers 4 spending their time 2 giv the participants an opportunity to realli enjoy themselves...
on the way home aft duty dropped by 2 see SO's 'baby' which wasn't feelin too well will b brought 2 see the mechanic coming monday for sum 'surgery'...
lastly to the NDP ppl,
i won't get 2 c ur'll much ( can alreadi hear sum of u shouting in joy lol) but JIAYOU kiez... n rmber 2 look out 4 one another! make the brigade n urself proud by putting up a gd show yah, n most of all, try n enjoy the xperience...
a recap of events...
1 June - NTU Bike rally
if ntu 'strongly encourages' ALL its students 2 take part in events like tis, i shldn't hav a prob slimming down =p... we started in EastCoast bight n early in the morning and ended up at EastCoast just as the sun was disappearing bhind the horizon - but in between we when all the way to NTU n back! 4 those of u nt familiar wif s'pore geography, EastCoast n NTU r at the opp ends of S'pore... actually, the route cover all 4 directions - North, South, East n West of Singpore... admire the determination of tis ppl to keep riding on thru rain n shine a Sunday when they can juz b enjoy the day lazing arnd. oso hav to take my hat off to the organizers... i mean the biggest thing i've ever organized is NCOC n even tat pales in comparison to the scale of tis event... anw, the alpha crew i was wif were relatively quiet n some1 fell in 'luv' wif my voice haha...lol
6 June - Zone Officers meeting
haha the first zone meeting my 'kids' have taken part in... all i can say 2 myself - 'the nxt batch's here!' which gt me tinking, if i had 2 leave sjab, where will i b? cld i ever bring myself 2 leave it? im sure tat my parents r realli all 4 it but they dun seem 2 understand the joy i get working wif these peeps... haiz i guess only time will tell if im able to find a way 2 keep them happi n still keep myself happi =( ...
7 June to 8 June - ACID camp 2008
definitely an eye opening experience. PasirRisPark activities in the morning was nt realli tat interesting n i suppose the rain did put a damper on things... still i gt the oppurtunity 2 sing my song to KS (those hu noe me noe tat i only sing 1 'song')so far my song hav gotten mixed reviews...
Sars when i sang 2 him at another duty i had earlier...
KS when i sang to him at the Park...
**disclaimer: NO human/animal/plant hav been harmed in any manner due 2 my singing.... yet **
as u can tell, im a great singer... lol
anw, i guess one the highlight of the duty for me was going back to my alma mater (i hope i spelt it rite?!?!)
tis was the place i spent 2 of my best years (though nt best in the academic terms!) - i realli grew as a person, a frend, a leader while i was there... it was here tat i developed g8 frendships n had my 1st real crush... i tink other than values n lesson PJC gave me, it oso gav me the 'Dumb Family' - a grp of ppl wifout whom i dun noe if i cld hav pulled thru the hardest of time while i was there... those were real gd times but atlas, gd times nvr last but at least memories do...
back to the duty, mostly uneventful wif a total 'charlie' count of less than 5??? anw met a rather frendly, down 2 earth doctor n many frendly instructors (SGLs/GLs) really hav 2 giv it 2 the volunteers 4 spending their time 2 giv the participants an opportunity to realli enjoy themselves...
on the way home aft duty dropped by 2 see SO's 'baby' which wasn't feelin too well will b brought 2 see the mechanic coming monday for sum 'surgery'...
lastly to the NDP ppl,
i won't get 2 c ur'll much ( can alreadi hear sum of u shouting in joy lol) but JIAYOU kiez... n rmber 2 look out 4 one another! make the brigade n urself proud by putting up a gd show yah, n most of all, try n enjoy the xperience...
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